Going to the tattooist tomorrow and might end up with a new tattoo . Maybe a dragon , to go on my right forearm. Exciting !!!!!!!!

My back is back to normal , that is , it still hurts but only like it used to before I fell out of bed.

Been listening to The Sundays cds quite alot recently , the lead singer , Harriot Wheeler I think , has a voice to die for. I will put up a video of theirs in a moment.

Unfortunately they broke up after only 3 cds so she could have kids , wish they would get back together again.

I was having a dream last night and managed to roll out of bed and hurt my back . Have spent the whole day in bed dosed up on pain killers trying to help the pain . Finally seems to have settled down but I’ll wait to see how I feel tomorrow. Might be stiff and sore again.

We have been watching True Blood which I downloaded from the net , it’s been great so far , we are up to ep 7 season 2 . It’s about vampires and stuff, really good.

Well we finally got the swine flu injection to stop us getting it . But the doctor told me the injection isn’t actually for the current swine flu but what that might mutate to, it’s all confusing to me , lol .

It didn’t hurt much and was free which was good. Although I have tattoos , I hate getting needles , lmao.

Summer has come early here , global warming I suspect , and the grass has already died , I hate the heat . You never feel like doing anything , not that I do anything anyway. lol

Here are some before and after pics , now they won’t be so hot during summer.

Ok , so it was second hand but it is new to us . It’s a 2004 Magna and its in great condition as you can see from the photos.

We traded in our two cars to get it so we are a one car family now.

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Yes we are coming to that part of the year that fills me with dread. Christmas time !!! Suddenly all the shops are crowded and its hard to park. So many people , it always brings on my anxiety attacks. Then of course there is eating lunch with the rest of my family which I always find uncomfortable as I don’t fit in with them at all.

Also I always feel sad after Christmas day as it used to be so exciting when I was little but now it’s nothing but a let down.

I don’t know why I feel like I do but that’s just me I guess.

I’ve been trying to write some more positive poetry but I don’t seem able too. I guess I only write when I’m feeling bad , is that a god thing or not ?

This is me with my Aunt Betty . I never knew her much until recently but we have developed a strong bond . She likes books and movies like we do and she is great to talk to . And , unlike the rest of my family, is happy to see both me and my wife. We talk a lot on the phone but its a long drive for me to go to her place very often unfortunately.

This is a rare picture of our two dogs , Coco and Buster , sleeping with my mother in laws dog, Suzie.

Suzie is the black one, Buster is the grey one and Coco is upside down in her bed. lol

one hundred tiny minds
one hundred different kinds
so it seems
what it means
to you and me
for others to see
what it takes
how it breaks
lost in thought
for wars we fought
where to begin
to wash the sin
of our own mood
of life we sued
the day will end
the words will bend
for all our sake
our words will break
there's no tomorrow
for strife and sorrow
there's only today
that's what I say.

My mother in law is going to be staying with us for a few days as she is having a small eye operation and she’ll need looking after.

I’m struggling with my sleep patterns as I have reduced my intake of sleeping tablets as my body was getting to use to them I think.

I have used up most of my monthly allowance from my ISP as I downloaded the complete Inspector Morse onto dvd which will be great for viewing over the boring summer months of non rating Tv shows.

We have replaced all our old globes with low energy saving ones now so hopefully that will cut down our electricity bills a bit.

We just got a letter saying our gas bill is going to go up by nearly double which is a shock, looks like we will have to stop using our central heating so much during winter.

Oh well , off to make some lunch and then read a bit before my mother in law rolls up.

Take care all.

Pete

Driven to the edge of insanity

left to rot by humanity

build up the walls around me

build them up so I'll never be free

sometimes I just want to be alone

living my life on my own

ending it when I see fit

putting out the candle when it was lit

it's my life, it's my life

woven between struggle and strife

where are the friends who were there before

driving a knife right through to the core

dogs bark and birds fly away

and I fight for the words that I want to say

what it is I really mean

hidden by life I've so rarely seen.

I have been using windows 7 for a couple of weeks now and it is the best operating system Microsoft have put out.

I used to think windows xp was great but this one is brilliant. I wish I had a newer computer to make full use of it but I can’t afford to upgrade.

with the fall of rainbows

where the sky meets the sea

with deep depressing lows

that’s where you’ll find me.

hidden by unknown people

in my own private place

like a church’s steeple

built by black lace.

deciding between two things

between life and death

dealing with what life brings

and coping with the rest.

standing on the edge of a cliff

waiting to fly above

with the wind I feel the lift

flying like the wings of a dove.

Its really exciting as my team has won 17 in a row now and is undefeated. There are only 22 rounds in the season and then the finals . I still can’t believe we have done this well and although we haven’t won the finals yet it has still been an amazing season. Fingers crossed for the rest of the year.

The Tour de France is almost over for another year and I’ve enjoyed staying up to watch it although I’m looking forward to getting back to a somewhat normal sleeping pattern. The TV coverage has been a bit disappointing this year with ad breaks taken at vital moments in the race. For example , one stage the commentators had spent the entire stage of the race talking about a mountain climb coming towards the end and just when they hit the climb they went to an ad , of course when they came back the damage had been done and the top riders had broken away. There is no excuse for the timing of the ad apart from trying to make money by the TV station. The problem is that the TV station used to be government funded as it is a multicultural station and used to have no ad breaks but government cutbacks over the years has recently meant they have had to start putting ads on . Very frustrating , as they show a lot of great foreign films on there that the commercial stations wouldn’t touch. Oh well, that’s life I guess.

Just watched it and whilst I did enjoy it they have left so much out from the book as well as changing major scenes . I wont spoil it for anyone that hasnt seen it yet but there were some major bits left out which disappointed me a lot . Maybe the book had too much to put into one movie and I see that for the last book they are actually making two films , parts 1 and 2 . For people who haven’t read the book they might be a bit confused about some bits but they should enjoy it anyway. For fans of the books , like me , they will be upset at the changes and stuff left out . If only they would film those bits and then include them as bonus features when the dvd comes out like the did with the Lord Of The Rings extended versions.

The copy I downloaded was only average quality so I’lll still download the good version when it eventually comes out to go with the rest of the collection.

My Aussie rules football team , St. Kilda , is on top of the ladder after 15 rounds of the competition , undefeated !!!!! Unbelievable . I have followed them since I was a kid and most of that time we have been on the bottom. Our club has been in the comp for around 100 years and as won the premiership once , way back in 1966 . I’m not counting my chickens before they hatch but it would be great if they won it this year. I would like to be able to celebrate it at least once. I was two years old when they one it last time.

The doggies are giving me unhappy looks because I won’t take them for a walk because it looks like its about to rain and its cold too . But , in my condition , I can’t take them every day anyway. Coco really pulls hard on the lead which can hurt my back. In fact usually after walking them I have to lie down for awhile to recover.

The new Harry Potter movie starts today so I’ve will have to try convince my wife to take me to the movies , I’d like to see it on the big screen.

I feel tired because I have been staying up watching the Tour de France every night so my sleeping patterns are all jumbled up. There’s still two weeks to go too.

Time to feed the dogs then I might lie down for awhile.

If anyone is wanting some relaxation music I suggest Tony O’Connor , I have about 5 of his cds and they are great to drift off to sleep to, or just to relax with.

I have put an example up that I found on you tube which includes an amazing video of seahorses.